| No matter what I do, its not enough |
[Nov. 2nd, 2005|01:47 pm] |
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| |  irritated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Starting Line | ] |
Well I officially fail at boys. I don't really know what I'm up to all I know is im officially frustrated. Freashman has been out of school for like 3 days now so I miss him a lot..I need to talk to him. He makes me happy a lot. But I guess things are good with the person I want them to be. He makes me happy and were best friends...who knows what going to happen from here..so what ev. I don't know what I'm up to with cheer either. Everytime I push myslelf my shoulder hurts worse. but I can't do anyting to stop otehr then pretty much quit. I hate it. I had to quit superstars which sucks. I don't know...it just hasn't been the best of the last couple of days. |
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| But I was thinking of you... |
[Oct. 19th, 2005|02:15 pm] |
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| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jack's Manniquin | ] |
Yeah, I dont really write much. This thing kinda makes me mad I'm not gonna lie about it. Lifes sweet.I went to the fall Out Boyy concert last week. It was amaazing. I was like front row for the starting line...and crowd surfed durring FOB for the first time. Amazing. I made up with Ry that night too. However, I couldn't go get Kroh. I think he's still mad at me but waht are you goonna do. I had to quit superstars..shoulders have gotten to bad. Oh well, I hated it any way. Schools getting pretty sweet. I actually like my classes this year. The clans commming back in action. Mike Oneill is the funniest human. Ever. This week he was themed all week. I have to say he has all my clothes on today. Emo day. Crissa and him came to my house this morning and we got him ready. I wish I could start every day like that. I love my life right now Im not gonna lie. |
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| Just get me out of here... |
[Oct. 3rd, 2005|06:56 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lifehouse and Kelly | ] |
Well the last week has been interesting to say the least. My shoulders still really messed up. But what ever...dr's on Friday..well see how that goes. I guess I'll start on Friday cause thats where it all gets good. We went all the way out to Butler, to cheer, it was their homecomming game so we were really pumped up. It was crushhhed the first half and we came back out and they started to get their game together. We ended up in double over time with Butler missing like 3 field goals, then finally scoring one. WE came back and scored a touchdown and finaally won. Best moment of my life we all went NUTS. After the game I went to Red River with a lot of the Juniors and Julie and Geoff..came home and slept. Saturday worked for Emma all day then went to Jenn's suprise party. I missed the suprise but what ev it was good. Gar and Matt came and picked me and Baby up and we all came back to my house and hung out here for hours..it was actually a lot of fun. Me and Gar and Matt had a tickle fest but hey waht ev. haha. I miss seeing Gar all the time. Oh well...
So then Baby slept over which was lonnnng over do. We talked for billions of hours. I missed her a lot. So that was sweet. Then Sunday I went to church for a leaders meeting and then Gar came to drop something off, then me and my mommy and Madison got McDonalds. Max came to see my dress and then I had superstars. Went to Mikes parents...took a nap and came home. Oh I forgot I almost killed us on the way there...but its all good! haha..I decided last night I miss T. Its time for her to come home again. For good this time. Today was the best day of my life. Teddy Bear Day!! haha me and Britt were pumped about it...and decided to make it an annual holiday. I had cheerleading and sucked at tumbling. Its starting to piss me off a lot.
Came home.. and frustrated myself again. Ugh...just get me out of this whole thing. I know it wont happen...i need to get over it. |
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| Wake me up when September ends... |
[Sep. 23rd, 2005|08:41 am] |
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| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 3 Doors Down | ] |
So the last couple of days have been more of the same. School, cheerleading, homework, sleep, do it all again. Except for the fact that I crushed my shoulder. I cant cheer as of now...cause i have a sprianed AC. Sooo I'm hopeing out good friend Bill Love will make it out tonight and give the ok to cheer. I went to Gar's game at NH last night. We crushed them. It was fun though..I went with Crissa and Kell and Erica. Other then that its been pretty much the same old same old. Me and Sam talk again now...but it really depends onthe day how nice we are to eachother haha. Ry and are are still sweet and Jacksons ok...Mike i just dont know about. So I guess the clans ok. But Im in love with the neighborhood. Even though I never get to see Rolo. It sucks. |
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| Even on the good days, I still miss waht we had. |
[Sep. 15th, 2005|01:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Motion City | ] |
Well, my computer doesnt reeally make it out much so ill give you an over view. I had my birthday big 16 and that was awesome. I got my permit on Tuesday..so I drive everywhere so thats pretty much the wrap up of the birthday. I got good things and the birthday party is up and comming...if you have any ideas lemme know! Soo Terra came in to suprize me and that was good to see her...we had aimees sisters wedding..and that was ammmazing. I missed the Transition show though and I was pertty bummed about that. Oh well, i heard it was amazing so im really proud of those kids. I have to miss the next one too...im pisssssed. Its homecomming night..soo. Im going to homecomming with Max..should be sweet. The clan pretty much fell apart. Me and Crissa arent the happiest about that. Me and Ryan talk all the time though witch maakes me verrry happy. Hes helped me through a lottttt now but it sucks hes in my schooll. Im stil really close to him, Jackson, and Criss..but Mike and Sam have there days. It sucks really bad. But at least I had a blast with them...but im not gonna lie i miss everything. This summer was the best summer ever because of them, and theres not a day I dont think about the end of summer with them. But like we always said "you'll have that" : ( Cheerleading has pretty much taken over my life...but what can you do. First home game this Friday..Im so excited. If your there come see me pleease! Tonight should be fun Im going to see my little Jackson play football in my shirt...hopefully with Crissa. But I have cheerleading before that. ew. Oh, and I have about 432478 tests tomorrow..so should be a busy night. Ok I gotta go back to class...ugh school sucks. Ill write later if my computer works. |
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| Every now and again sometimes...I get lost on the wind of a dream. |
[Sep. 1st, 2005|01:05 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Used. | ] |
Well a lot has happened in the last three days. Monday morning I got up and went to tumbling at 9 o'clock and we had our mile test. My mom came too late with my inhailer and Dana had to stop me after my thrid lap because I couldnt beathe at all, and I thought I was going to die. I started to cry because my lungs hurt so bad..but I was ok. And I dont have to run it again because at the end of my thrid lap I was only at 535...so thats good. I came home from cheerleading and then went back again at 4. I had to run another 2 laps and I thought I was going to shoot someone. My heart was still sore from the morning so practice was hell. Monday night I went to the movies with a bunch of people and Sam was really cute. I came home and had a hugggge drama. Appt. at the party that Jackson was at Julie started this rumor that Jackson and I like eachother..which is bullshit. Not only do I protect Jackson Boyd with my life...and anyone that makes him upset will die but yeah I love the kid to death but hes just my best friend. And it didnt make it any worse that she told my best friend who likes Jackson..and who Jackson likes.. So I had to deal with that whole thing and by the time that was over I decided Jackson was prettty much my favorite human ever. So I went to sleep and then woke up and had the worst day of my life on Tues. I had practice and we got there and had to run another fricken mile. I thought Leslie was going to die from all of us...but what ever. So then we were all dead and didnt wanna practice so we wernt to good which always pisses me off. Not to mention the clan was starting to fight which always makes me rrealll upset. By the time I left practice there was no longer a clan....we pretty much all hatted eachother. Well me and Crissa and Jackson were still in love but you know. So I was really upset and so was Criss so she came over.. and thanks to my wondeful husband everything ended up working out. But while the fight was still going on me and criss and jackson decided we were in love and decided we were going o be a couple. haha. I love those kids a lot. But once everything was fixed Crissa decided she hated Ry...so that was bad. Crissa left and me and my mom got in a hugggge fight and i was cring a lot so I just decided I was gonna call it a night hopeing it would all be over whenn I woke up. Which it was thankkkkkk god. I woke up this morning and went back to school shopping.. then I went to cheerleading. It actually wasnt bad at all and we were doing pretty good. I went from cheerleading to work and put in my two week notice. Thank god. I hate that place its the worst place to work everrrr. Then the clan (minus my lover...Jackson Boyd I miss you a lot plllease see me tomorrow) went to Crissa's which was sweet to see us all happy again. Haha Sam and I beat the crap out of eachother but he was cute most of the night so that made me very happy. I got to cuddle with Ry and Crissa too...I love when that happens. Hehe. I also found out realllly disapointing news aboug Gar but I dont really wanna talk bout that. Haha. So I dropped the Oneills off and then came home. Talked to Jackson. He alwyas makes me so fricken happy. And then Chelsea Lynn called and ohh what a time that was. She ate a 6 year old war head and then tried to wash down the taste with orange juice. haha I about peeeed myself and relized how much i really do love that girl...well I knew before but you know. So nowww Im about to go to sleep...and I'm pretty excited about tomorrow. I have work in the morning *ugh* but then after that I think I get to see Mike (The Rolo one) I miss him soooo fricken much. I miss the whole neighboorhood...but espially him. I havnt seen him in a while..and he always makes me smile. Im not to sure whats going on with the neighboorhood...but mike always has been the sweet one. We like to have heart to hearts...hes very good at them. I love it. But wee havent really been talking much so im supppper excited to see him. I love him a lot. Then I think I'm going to Jacksons game with crissa. I havnt seen Jackson for a few days so I might just run out on the field and tackle him. And I want to see all my lovllly cheerleader lovers. a.k.a. chels and kier haha. So tomorrow should be sweet. But right now all I know is i miss Jackson. Where is he? |
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| ..I speak my mind because bitting my tounge hurts. |
[Aug. 28th, 2005|07:33 pm] |
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| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Brooks and Dunn | ] |
Well....I was at my Dad's this weekend...it actually wasnt bad. Friday was the first varsity game. Possibly the most amazing game of my life. It was pooring, we were getting crushed soo we just decided we would have fun. Brittany (who I got lucky enough to stand next to) was pretty much making me pee my pants the entire 2nd half of the game. I love her a lot. Then we went to red River after the game...then J Clarks. complete disaster...thank god I'm quitting that place. Saturday I had work then the car wash.Sam and Mike and Mikes brother came...took my shoes and shot me with bb guns...yeah there sweet. Pretty fun. I went home and chilled with diane for a while. Then went to the movies with the whole group. Sammie was very cute there he made me veryyyy happy. Hehe..Then after the movie a few of us walked up to Subway. Mike gave me a piggy back ride because hes super cute too. then Crissa slept over and I love her veryyyy much. We talked to the Oniels all night...cause they make us feel like princesses. Ryan comes home tomorrow! I could possibly be the happiest person about that. Ohh the clan. What would I do with out them!?!? Haha. Sunday I went to church, love the kids there, and then went to lunch with the Cincalas to send Liose to college. Really sad. But it was good to chill with Justinn and Even too! Then I had superstars then went to Katies...it was really good talking to her too. I missed her. Now Im home again and I'm hopping me Jackson Mike and Sam are gonna do something tonight. Brooks and Dunn in 6 days. I'm soo excited. Ill write later. |
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| ..Just because Im not there doesn't mean I don't miss you. |
[Aug. 26th, 2005|05:41 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Good Morning Beautiful (hehe) | ] |
Ohhh geeze. Tonights the big first game. Penn Hills...I'm kinda nervous..but more excited to acutually have people there. Haha. Yesterday was perrty sweet. I woke up at 2 and then went to cheerleading at 4. It wasnt to bad we had the "cheer test" to make sure we were ready today, ran 1/2 a mile (not bad!), and then stunted for tonight. Came home and got ready for Ronnies. Kell picked me off and we went to Ronnies, that was really fun...I spent most of the night with the clan witch is alwaysss good. I came home and then talked to people on I.M. till late. I woke up this morning and went to gget my physical...they gae me a tetnis shot. I hate shots. And then I went to work. Crissa apperently tried to come see me but i was already gone...that was ppretty much a bummer. Then I went to go get my megaphone letters and went to the shop. Then came home and got ready for the game!!! I'm about to leave to go cheer in the rain..but hey I'm ready to stomp on some penn hills ghetto butt! haha. Oh Ry left today, Im not happy about it but I drew him a reallllly pretty picture : ) |
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| sorry |
[Aug. 24th, 2005|01:21 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | matchbook romance | ] |
Sorry I havnt writtin in about 300 years. I went to church camp (most ammmmazing week of my life by farrrr...much love haha) and then my internet was broken. Summers almost over, im not to excited...but i got my schedule and it sweet soo school shouldnt be too bad. for the first few weeks any way. Cheerleadings hell, were in camp right now so its like 2 a days and crap plus superstars. Shoot me. But last night was amazing. Yesterday we had to paint signs, and then i went to subway bonded with my wenceeee and then went to kel kols, went to pictures then me, skinn, kel, and erica went to visit little crissa and then went to by black and gold socks for the varsity soccer game then went to kels my house you know ran around and then went to the game deckeddddd out. It was rediculous. But my clan lovers came to the game i was excited. After the game we all went to the festival (probs the worst thing ever) and then went to wendy's. Kelly realllly had to pee so we ran (yes we know we had a car) to McDonalds because wendys wouldntlet us in, but neither would mcdonalds so we ran all the way to festival (me kell and crissa). Possibly one of the funniest things ever. Ran back JT, Ry, and Mike were still there and Gar, Phil, and Chet came so we took kel's car home The clan went home and then Gar came to get us. Everything was just fine until Gar decided he was gonna go real fast over this massive bump.....and me and crissa pretty much killed eachother. Im not feelin to good haha. But we took criss home...went to phils then went home. I found Transition DVDs in my room...didnt know why i had em so i called Harrison we talked for a while...and I think I have to give them to him. But anyway woke up 6 hrs later...went and ran the mile and tumbled and i have to go back to cheerleading later. Fun. |
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| St. Alexis day 1 |
[Aug. 4th, 2005|11:40 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  giddy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mae | ] |
Well, Yesterday was Mr. Jeff Finke's birthday. So of course I called him at midnight. I talked to him for a while..and then went to sleep. I had cheerleading at 9..and we did way to many handsprings yet again (I'm so fricken sore) but conditioning wasnt too bad. and we didnt have to run so that was good. I came home and took a nap..and then went to Superstars from 3-430. Brian was there so we actually did stuff...nice change. I came home and got ready to go dance at St. Alexis. I got there and my whole dad's side of the family was there. I saw Kayla (my little cousin) which was amazing considering shes like mmy little sister and i havnt seen her in FOREVER. She pretty much attacked me. Shes cute. So I danced, got really really over heated and almost passed out and threw up. Crissa took care of me though so it was good! After I got better I just hung out and talked to everyone. I saw Dan finally and went up and gave him a big hug. It was awesome to see him to. I missed him. I think I finally know who I like..but we'll see how that goes!
Tonights the last performance I'll do for Tammys School of Dance. Ever. I'm not too sure how I feel about that. |
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| The last few days have been amazing. |
[Aug. 2nd, 2005|11:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | John Mayer | ] |
Well my computer has been sweet the past few days so I havn't been writting but heres whats going on. Sunday I spent all day with my dad and his girlfriend which was good because I don't get to see to much of them. Sunday night was hillarious though. It was Max's birthday and since his birthday party got all messed up and me and michelle love him we decided we would make him a cake. So before Michelle came over..Leslie wanted to have a sleepover with me so she came over.. and then Me, Michelle, and Leslie baked him a cake. Right before we took it to him Aimee came over..because she was sleeping over too since warped was monday (: D) So we take him his cake...and the boys decided they were going to play release and we werent because were girls. So we decided it was a perfect time for an all out war. When the boys came home we dumped ice cold water on them and I had a sqirt gun and from there it was over. We had a MASSIVE pillow fight..the girls got creamed I have to say but we re-faced them and won (there eyes were shut and they were on there knees though) haha..so we hung out with them till about 1130 and then came back here. Me, Leslie, and Aimee talked for WHILLE which was amazing because the 3 of us used to be inseperable so to catch up with them felt amazing. Then Aimee went to sleep and me and Les went out to the tramp to look at the stars and talk. We were out there for a little over an hour and had some best friend talk then went in and decided we needed to sleep. Casey found out she couldnt go to wappred (which i was VERYYYY upset about) but Leslie got to go so that was good. So we woke up Monday morning before the alarm because we were so fricken excited and jammed to warped bands. Laura got here and we went to warped. It was yet again one of the best days of my life. Mae, The Starting Line, FOB, Atreyu, The Bled, Motion City Soundtrack, ahh I was in love. Fall Out Boy was by far the best ever. We were probaly 3rd row, and within 30 seconds they had to stop because the group I was in just fell over. Peobs about 70 people haha..but after that they were incredible. I called Casey a lot to let her listen because I love her. I watched My American Heart too who were amazing and Dust made me proud. I got to see him a lot which made me happy. I gave him a huge hug. I saw Harrison a lot too...and talked to him.. which was awesome. It was soo good to see him since I feel like I havnt seen him saince like Apr. They were both doing really good..and excited to keep going on tour..I'm really proud of both of them...and I cant even imagine how tired they must be because after one day of warped im dying lett alone 3 months of it. I still have yet to see Dan..I'm not to sure whats going on with that but whatever. Aimee slept over again last night and we got up about 1130 this morning and went to the pool with all the nieghborhood kids. Ryan and Sam came..for Tinas thing. It was good to hang out with them too. Mike left for vaction today so he wasnt there (: /) Speeking of vaction Jennys home..which makes me very happy. ok anyway, so then I had work..we talked about Laguna Beach pretty much the whole time. haha...Crissa came over after work and we just hung out and talked a lot. I love her and think shes very cute. We were going to hang out with the Clan but were not sure what happened with that either. Haha. Tomorrow I have the St. Alexis fesitval which should be AMAZING. But sad...because after the next two days I'm done. Oh well, I dance at 7 please come see me!!!!! Well, Rolo just called so I'm gonna go talk to him and see whats up for the rest of the night. Oh how I love this neighboorhood. ANNNND Jeffy turns 16 in about 20 mins so I need to call him. Have a good night. |
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| Oh another sweet day |
[Jul. 30th, 2005|11:30 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Brooks and Dunn!!! | ] |
Well me and Crissa woke up about 815 and I went to work with her (she lifeuards at the oaks) at 9...and we layed out and sat there and talked for a very long time. Then Sam, Mike, Ryan, and Jackson decided to be cute again and bring us lunch. So, we chilled with them till 2:30..when crissa got off...then all of us went back to Ry's house and Sam made me an amazing snow cone. Then we all went to Norht Ingomar pool...where I got even more tan. Haha...I worked on the gainer a little because Mike is detumined that I will get it...and then me, sam, and Jack owned the rest of them in pool basketball. We saw B-Hos, Heather, and Lizz there too...so we hung out with them a little...played a few games of corner tag. you know how it goes. Then I came home went to my Grandma's for dinner and then went bowling with finke, rolo, max, and pat. That was a lot of fun....not to mentiioned i creamed everyone but finke. Haha im in love with those boys. Over all it was a reallll good day... OH OH I almost forgot my mommy told me that Aimees sleeping over tomorrow for warped IM SOOO EXCITED. I feel like I havnt seen her foreverrr and i miss her a lot. And Jenny myspaced me. I miss her too. ANNNNNNDDDDDD crissa's taking me to the Brokes and Dunn concert for my birthday AHHH SOOO EXCITED |
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| Black and White Party |
[Jul. 30th, 2005|12:05 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Starting Line | ] |
Well tonight was the black and white party. Before hand Laura Kim came over and we went on a date. That was cute and a lot of fun. Then we went to the black and white party and that was a lot of fun. There was almost the infomous fight between calds and Sam...but thank god it didn't happen. I felt really bad for Max because I love him...and he was sad..but its ok because me and chelle have a suprize for him on his real birthday!! Well, the car ride home was an adventure in itself. Me, Crissa, Mike, Sam, JT, and Ryan...decided we were going to squish ourselves in a 4 seater...with music blasting and the driver well um a little tipsy haha. We got home ok though..and we might meet them up at mms tonight...and were going to the pool with them in the morning. Actually me and Criss think we might be in love with them. It's all good. So now me and Crissa are sitting here....and probaly about to go have a heart to heart because thats what were good at. What can we say we love eachother. Ok...ill probaly write tomorrow. Oh yeah, I got my Warped Tour ticket today...that made me veryyyy happy...since its in 3 days. |
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| Last night was possibly the funniest night of my life. |
[Jul. 29th, 2005|09:51 am] |
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| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Kelly Clarkson | ] |
Well yesterday Kelsey came over and we just kinda sat and talked for a while until we went to Verizon to get me a new phone. Getting me a new phone took for fricken ever so me and kels but outselves on all the phones..and sent pics to people. Emma called the store and the guy got really mad but it was ok. We went home and Gar picked us up, and we went to Crissa's house with Sam Mike and Ryan...that was probaly the funniest thing i hae ever been to in my life. The 3 of them and Gar were on fire about everything. Me, Crissa, Kelsey, and Mrs. Stack were about to pee ourselves about the whole night. Then Mrs. Stack took all of us home...and Gar went along for the ride. That wasn't bad. I got home and me and Criss had about an hour long heart to heart..and helped eachother out a lot. Warped Tours in like 3 days now so I'm really excited. Oh and the Black and White Party is tonight....that should be amazing. |
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| Just getting Started |
[Jul. 28th, 2005|01:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Straylight Run | ] |
Well it took me a while to figure all of this out...but I think i have it. This summer has been pretty good. Since I'm living in a neighborhood of a ton of kids my age theres never really a dull moment...which is much better then just sitting at home. I went to Washington to move Terra which was really fun but at the same time really sad. Then I got home and went to Bethany Beach with my family and Crissa Stack. That was amazing, and it was there that I got the big news about Harrison and Transition. Speeking of that...I'm really excited to go see all of them at Warped. Me and Harrison talked for a while last night and that was pretty sweet. But, anyway after vacation I came home and have spent a lot of time with Kristen Dafner...she makes me happy. I've finally worked things out with Kat too...which no one really expected to ever happen...but I'm really glad it did. We're going to hang out when she gets home from Austrialia and I'm pretty excited to get to know her better. I'm still cheering like none other and its pretty much killing me latly. Varsity's a killer...and no I'm not going back to dance..so all the dance girls that were talking about how I "Do this every year.." what ever....I'm not comming back. Sorry. Ok I think I'm done for now...I'll probaly post one tomorrow about the Black and White party...I'm really excited for that. |
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| Bad night last night |
[Jun. 18th, 2005|01:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mae | ] |
well...last night was pretty bad. First it was what i thought was going to be my last big recital and the last time me and amber were going to be on stage just us..so we had a big mental breakdown that was bad. Then Terra got a phone call that her uncle got killed in a car accendent, and her mom wanted her to fly out then. That was pretty much when it hit me she was leaving...but i stilll get to go out for the week so thats cool. Today was better me and my mom talked about dance and got it so i can keep dancing...thank god. Now I gotta go pack cause me and T leave tomorrow. Then I have recital tonight..come see me please |
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